Best Poems From
(march 7th 1993)
It still hurts that you're gone
even after the years
I'm sitting perched on the throne,
I hold back all the tears
Wipe the pain from my eyes,
just grabbing the beers
I look at this bitter home
what the hell happened in here?
So I pick up this pen and paper
I have to have a career
Music is my only true love
it never shatters and tears
All that we worked for
it only gets better
Even when I doubt myself,
I sound composed in this letter
But sadly I can't say the same
for the women I love
or women I hate
for what they did to the dove
That used to represent
the love that I felt
for everyone that I see
but now you've fucked someone else
I said I would always love you
and it's still in my heart
Even though I wanna slug you
and I'm feeling so dark
I remember when I first met you
it was chill from the start
I said 'girl, you're so special
I would kill if we part'
You probably thought I meant you
but you were bad for my health
Loving you was like taking a gun
turning it up, and blasting myself
Not looking back
Our lifestyles be close captioned
addicted to fatal attractions
No fairy tales for this young black male
Some see me stranded in this land of hell, and jail waiting
until God sends me my mail
Wishing I live my life a legend, immortalized in pictures
Why shed tears? Save your sympathy
My childhood years were spent burying my peers in the cemetary
Here's a message to the newborns, waiting to breathe
If you believe then you can achieve
Just look at me
Against all odds, though life is hard we carry on
Living in the projects, broke with no lights on
To all the seeds that follow me
protect your essence
Born with less, but you still precious
Just smile for me now
Now as I open up my story
with the blaze
And you can picture thoughts slowly
up on phrases I wrote
And I can walk you through the days that I done
I often wish that I could save everyone
but I'm a dreamer
Have you ever seen a nigga who was dry in the rain
overlooking his tomorrows and they finally came?
Look back on childhood memories and I'm still feeling the pain
live too long in my past you will go insane
To many hassles in my local life, surviving the strain
But when I focus on reality I broke and in chains
Had a dream of living wealthy and making it big
And after all my momma's thanking God for blessing ha child
All my momma gots to do now is collect it and smile
here for you
im missing your voice even though its some thing i rarely hear
it just brings me so much joy nothing else can compare
i wonder what you're thinking about do you mind to share?
it hurts enough knowing you're heavyhearted its even worse cause im not there
so i feel like i cant help you which i just cant bear
i smile will comes to my face if my poems help you wipe even a single tear
im home now but i can still feel your sorrow in the air
please hit me up before i suffocate, i cant breathe without you i swear
i hope you're thinking 'does he really care? '
the answer is yes and im telling you lici im always here
Living after death
If tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
if the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too;
but when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in Heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
for all my life,
Id always thought,
I didnt want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much left yet to do,
it almost seemed impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
the thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had
If I could relive yesterday,
just even for a while,
Id say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.
And then I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.
He said, This is eternity,
and all Ive promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each days the same way
theres no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times
you did some things
you knew you shouldnt do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last youre free.
So wont you come and take my hand
and share your life with me
So when tomorrow starts without me,
dont think were far apart,
for every time you think of me,
Im living here, in your heart.