Best Poems From
(march 7th 1993)
Living after death
If tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
if the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too;
but when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in Heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
for all my life,
Id always thought,
I didnt want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much left yet to do,
it almost seemed impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
the thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had
If I could relive yesterday,
just even for a while,
Id say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.
And then I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.
He said, This is eternity,
and all Ive promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each days the same way
theres no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times
you did some things
you knew you shouldnt do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last youre free.
So wont you come and take my hand
and share your life with me
So when tomorrow starts without me,
dont think were far apart,
for every time you think of me,
Im living here, in your heart.
How I feel is hard to explain
too many thoughts always
racing through my brain.
Sometimes I feel mental-
like I'm going insane,
like I have no potential
and I'll always be the same.
I block out reality-
I'm the only one to blame
I only see what I wanna see
As opposed to what I became.
I see myself as plain-
point out all the bad...
too hard to see the good,
trust me, I wish I could!
I do believe we all have a destiny
so in this life whats here for me
come closer and I'll pull the trigger
dare you to ask me why my pupils are bigger
you filled my head with all this stress
come closer and you'll have to clean up my mess
i can't stand all you put me through
come closer and ill show you a side you never knew
i thought drugs would calm me down
let me turn all your smiles to a frown
my mind is moving faster than i can think
come closer and let me give you something red to drink
shot echo's through my head like a chyme
opps, i guess you got to close this time
How i feel about you
you are the omega of my heart
the foundation of my conception of love
when i think of what a woman should be
its you that i first think of
loving you is my lifes goal
so i always try to succeed
your love brings peace to my soul
enabling me to return the deed
you will never fully understand
how deeply my heart feels for you
i worry that we'll grow apart
and i'll end up losing you
you bring me to climax without sex
and you do it all with regal grace
you are my heart in human form
a friend and love i could never replace