Best Poems From
(march 7th 1993)
For you my heart beats
Explosive emotions, drifting thoughts
Seeming so wrong, battles I've fought
Energy spent, from a soul filled with pain
Here comes windy storms, here comes the rain
As I ponder all the times I've been stepped on
And have tasted all the tears I've slept upon
My pillow soft, with all cotton fluff
Sorrows and heartache, I've had enough
Life gets tough, when you fight it up-stream
Though I share my love, no matter how hard it seem
My only fear, it just feels no matter what I do
My heart can't stop beating for you
Living after death
If tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
if the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too;
but when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in Heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
for all my life,
Id always thought,
I didnt want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much left yet to do,
it almost seemed impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
the thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had
If I could relive yesterday,
just even for a while,
Id say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.
And then I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.
He said, This is eternity,
and all Ive promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each days the same way
theres no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times
you did some things
you knew you shouldnt do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last youre free.
So wont you come and take my hand
and share your life with me
So when tomorrow starts without me,
dont think were far apart,
for every time you think of me,
Im living here, in your heart.
My destiny is you
You know it was your destiny,
For you to find me.
And yes its true,
Mine was to find you.
Now we're together we'll never be split,
What ever troubles us we'll get through it.
Now that I'm here I'll always be around,
Your one true love has finally been found.
Everyone could see from the moment you was born
That i was the one meant to fix your heat when its torn
You're the thought on my mind every single night,
And the one when I see morning light.
I'll never be without the one I call my girl,
If I ever am my life will die at that fatal twirl.
You're the one who keeps me breathing each and every day,
For as long as I live I'll be here to stay.
The amount I love you it don't seem real,
Our relationship is strong; it's my life and God's deal.
You're the one I live for every single day
We'll be together, forever, what do you say?
That' a simple answer it's an all around yes,
I can't wait for the day you put on that wedding dress.
I'm here to love you always, every single moment,
We're so perfect together, we don't miss one component.
I picture you lying here right next to me,
What would we do? What would it be?
Well things have changed cause back then I just wanted fun,
But now I love you, I want one daughter and son.
The boy can be called Josh as you would like,
Just remember, I'll teach him to ride a bike.
That's the future lets focus on now,
Will we continue to be one? If so how?
Remember it was destiny for me to find you,
Every word of that is oh' so true.
And for you to find me,
yes it is destiny
Seeing death as freedom
It's a curse, and I sit here with complaints and cuts
Overdose my eyes with these tears 'cause they just won't shut
Self-Inflicted violence, my words advocate evasion
I scream out in silence as pain completes its invasion
Such sensation, self-expression limits my breath
Revealing myself to the world is pleading for death
when i die please remember me
Because soon all i'll be is a memory
dead in my room, after all the hate enter me
forget bein happy, thats what i pretend to be
nuthing but tragedy on this road ahead of me
thats why tears and blood flow heavily
Besides death theres no remedy
No way to end the dreams
I wouldnt wish my nightmares on my enemies
Its all too much, not enough strength nor energy
Grant me the serenity to accept the things ahead of me
and the courage to not be nervous and fufill my destiny
God coudnt react fast enough, so i lay dead in my sheets
Mother is destroyed, my suicide letter is read every week
goodbye everybody, wipe the tears from your cheek
and for all eternity remember me