losing feelings for the past..
realizing theres more i look around the darkest of shadows.
trying to break the chains the had bound me he for so long.
with each tug more and more pain is inflicted on my skin.
The pain was not as bad as you'd think it would be..
but the fact of change of heart and soul changed a person like me.
after years lingering in the shadows with hate with in my heart.
i am so close to freedom of my hate and these shadows.
the thought sent tears to my eyes.
Still these chains will break and when they do..
I will trade me horns in for a set of wings and a halo.
i will beg for forgiveness for i have wondered away from the light.
i know i will pay the price for having such hate against everything.
Everything that made me who i am.
i had you'd my past as a reason to not face the change.
yes change hurts sometimes you don't realize how something has changed.
everything changes for better or worse...
For me my change is for the better of all of us.
My hate was too strong i couldn't fight it by myself.
One person gave me the strength to fight inner demons and come out of the hell i was in.
He showed me that my past was just another step to what is ment to be for me.
He showed me the was more then hate.
But there was love. he showed the love i couldnt find in the past.
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When I got to the tree that the branch broke from I saw it the two-tailed wolf.
His fur so black you would believe hes not real but his eyes so golden you think you hit jackpot.
With those eyes even Lisa can lose her very life. The strength this wolf withheld was so powerful.
My heart beat without fear but with hate. Lisa always loved wolves then this one came to me she seemed to be here to help me.
But her eyes remind me of Lisas face. With wet eyes as she sleeps a scream when she awakes.
Tears fall from my eyes knowing deep in my heart that my heart is cold.
But my spirit is free to be me had given me my world of hate an love even confusion.
My child the wolf speaks to me. When is she I cant pick up her sent what I can pick up is old.
The night wind blew across my face. And the search has began.
THE SEARCH FOR THE LOST ONE TWO THREE WHITCHS FOREST & THE FOBIDEN GRAVE YARD
Tonight the rain is falling just like the night I lost her the first time. The thunder is roaring at my feet.
The ground is shacking. My cold heart is beating fast and fearlessly.
My screams of there names are so cold but worried.
The more I yelled the louder my voice rang to the area around me.
The trees are thin but hard to get there for my heart once fearless are now scared to see that night here again..
riding on the black horse
The black horse haunts me every day i breath.
i see my reflection with in the deep dark soul of his hate for human kind.
he looks at me like im one of his kind.
he wants me to ride on him and fly above the odds.
i run with all my might to keep up with him.
i did not see this coming i have ran from my home.
to what i feared most the love of a man.
he looked at my like my reflection showed the day i found the black horse.
the man showed my my past and he helped my find my way to my pack.
he showed me ' that my heart needs to open back up and well come all to see what i see.
i found my love thanks to the black horse we forever ride on the shadows and above the light i cant see why i did not want to be within my powers.
not agents them my love is deep
but my hate is deeper.
my mom im coming home with my pack.
i love you so and my family my pack and me with protect you until we are dead and gone.
the lighting strikes and our blood falls to the ground like red paint uncared for
i run and fight off you demons as my pack and his clan falls with out hesitation but me my strength comes fro m you as long as Ur here ill fight until my bones are dust in the wind flowing with each shifting of the wind
as long as you her ill shine with the night sun hopping i get to tell those 3 words once again my love
i will dance with the devil of your path way home
until your home your going to be protected by the black horse of darkness my love.
you are the light you must go on.
i love you i need you to move on and go forth to our god pray for my sins my love for im not coming home to night
i might fall tonight fall harder then pained i need you to fly high in the sky fallow the light don't do wrong for i have and look at me
i don't care for my self any more i want you to fly above all the demon who wanted you dead my love i have danced with the devil for you so fly home my love i need you to do that for me you are my strength and i will fight until i get to come home love love
i will be home soon don't worry
im glad i was your savior because you have saved me so many times your more then a savior my love
i run from the lies
i face my past
i face my pain
i face the truth
we run from the lies
we face our past
we face our pain
we face the truth
u run from the lies
u face your past
u face your pain
u face the truth